Went out with Andrea today after Teachers' Day Celebrations. [Before meeting Andrea, I went to HarbourFront with Winata and guess what happened when we attempted to take the bus back to Commonwealth?? We alighted at Queenstown MRT station bus stop, thinking it was Commonwealth cos it said "Commonwealth Avenue". Haha!] Didn't buy a tennis racket and spent the money on tees instead.

I bought a green vintage tee (online), a tee that says "Friday" and another vintage tee.
Omg. I love vintage tees :) Haha, I'm gonna make sure that I have so many tees that Grace will be jealous :P

I think people who have dicks as heads should wear beanies. Grace, go get a beanie right away!

Shall save for a tennis racket asap. I think I've been meaning to get it since last year, but I just didn't have the motivation to save.

I think my blog posts are absolutely boring. Then again, I never meant for it to be entertaining. Lol.

I know the September holidays will be really short and jam-packed with mugging sessions. I've already made plans to study every single day of the September holiday, including weekends.

Yes, I've suddenly transformed, or rather, transforming into this paranoid-hardcore-mugger. Haha. Who am I kidding, blogger?!

Anyhoo, I'm damn excited to go out with Andrea this Friday to get my tennis racket! I've set my goals aright - hope to start tennis lessons after EOYs. And I'm seriously looking forward to 8th September - I'd be going out with Grace & Veron for a full day. Yay!

Meanwhile, it's studying and studying and studying for a better report slip...
I'd be looking forward to the day when I can smile at my books.

A part of me felt as though it has left and died, and gone to ground zero.

Oranges have been my best friend for the past week. There'll be one at my table every day. Day in, day out, there'll be an orange. Then my dad didn't bother to buy more oranges for me. Now, I have utterly no oranges to speak of.

I NEED ORANGES! URGH.

Without an orange a day, I keep eating. WHENEVER I CAN. My eating habits are turning like that of a starving African child who has never seen proper food for his whole life.

Apples have absolutely no effect whatsoever on me, even though apples supposedly help to control one's appetite.

I think I should just bring my moriji (read: ORANGE. Toy.) to school everyday.

I am most disturbed by the existence of some people who enjoy wallowing in self pity. I utterly disdain people who cry after getting what appears to be relatively good results.

Do they need a reality check, attention or a slap in the face?

It's not okay to be lazy, but if you've put in your best efforts - and you, most unfortunately cannot get an A, then that's the results you deserve. Period.

Such people should be shot. They lack a sense of social awareness.
Shameful.

I went to watch Agamemnon with eL on Saturday! And we took pictures in Clarke Quay :D

I ♥ eL!

Sometimes it's fantastic to have technology. You can tell someone something within seconds, just by pressing your handphone keys or the keyboard.

And honestly speaking, my handphone's been real handy during times when I'm bored. I always feel hopeful after looking at the "wishlist" which I've saved in my handphone.

Then again, there are just times when you've done something which offended someone. Or perhaps you need to wish someone "Happy Birthday".

Maybe it's just me, but I often feel that a texted "sorry" isn't really sincere, so is a texted "happy birthday". All well, that's the way we live isn't it? Not that I am against it.

I don't really mind it if you do send me "sorry"s and "happy birthday"s through sms. Sms-ing is really convenient and I do acknowledge the fact that we live in a busy world.

It's occasionally disappointing that technology fails what it promises to do and that we take certain things for granted.

Grace,

In any case, I did not try or attempt to leave you out of conversations today.

I know you had to ensure that everyone was fine on our way to the DBS Arts Centre and hence you had to walk behind. I hope you understand I was walking in front because I wanted to ensure that everyone walked quickly and followed quickly.

I can't help it if someone enjoys clinging to you. I can only say I will try to get you more involved in conversations so as to prevent you from feeling left out.

I tell you I think this whole issue is so screwed up.

I'm feeling very fk-ed up now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSLYN! :)

You are 15, "pregnant" and loved!

When you come undone...

Everyday's been alright, as it should be. I'm glad I'm beginning to gain some confidence while doing maths. I've failed my chinese test, my math test & my physics test as well. What else is there left for me fail?

None.

I wonder how I am able to take it all in my stride; to think positively even when I've failed. Most of the time, I see people bawling and crying yet I am able to stop myself from crying.

Have I gotten used to failing subjects? Maybe. But to put it euphemistically, I just have a strong character.

Then again, am I deluding myself? I don't know. Sometimes, it's so tiring to keep looking for answers when the answers aren't even there in the first place.

I have a little fear that I'll fail everything in the end.

Those once-in-a-blue-moon moments occur and take us by surprise. Sometimes, things work themselves out and everything will be fine in the end.

Is this going to be true this time round? I don't think so.

But I won't give up. Even if I were to fail, I know I had tried my best at that point in time, and I would try even harder the next time round.

I have Really Short Hair right now. Chopped them all off yesterday.




Never mind, I can't find any decent pictures of my hair let down in all its worth. Hence I posted pictures of myself playing "gypsy girl". Haha.

It's gonna be a long week ahead.

Undone - Lifehouse
(Because this song is loved :)

I can see it your eyes you're hurting
But pain is part of learning who you are
All these truths can sometimes be deceiving
When your whole world comes crashing to the ground

Tell me everything you need now anything at all
And I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall

Yeah, When you come undone
When you come undone

You know I can't be like everybody
Cause I can't tell you what you want to hear
I don't know if I can make it better
All I know is I will be around

Tell me everything you need now anything at all
And I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall

Yeah, When you come undone
When you come undone

When all your plans are made out lying on the floor
And all your dreams are turning into nothing more
When all your hope has left you know you're not alone
Just hold on
Hold on

Tell me everything you need now anything at all
And I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall

Yeah, When you come undone
When you come undone

Usually you go through life routinely. Once in a while, you experience something new and the memory stays there with you. After that, it's back to the same old routine.

You get sick of such a routine because you don't learn anything at all. Nevertheless you keep telling yourself "I'll break away from this cycle after the exams, or when I'm older. After all, I'm still young...".

Everyday will be a new day with new opportunities.

Has it ever occurred to us that, if we don't start believing that we can break away from our habits and the routine that we have got so used to now, we never will?

Time is a god-given gift that we have taken for granted; a gift which we often misuse, much to our own regrets. For now, youth does look like an eternal fountain but ina few years time it'll be gone, never to return again.

And then I had this sudden realisation that it's time I choose to live life happily. Happiness does seem to have a lot of psychological and physiological benefits which enhance a person's life.

Doesn't every adult say that youth is the best time of their lives?

It's really time I stopped being such an emo-kid (having disdain and discontentment for everything). It's natural to feel unhappiness but surely, feeling unhappy/miffed about every single detail in life every single day is way overboard. It just screams "emo, angsty teenager" all the way.

Don't you think that happy teenagers lead very fulfilling lives? Happy people inspire you to want to live better.

When I'm an adult, I do not wish to look back on my youth regretting about past moments and identifying opportunities to be happy which I have missed.

Perhaps the whole idea of associating "happiness" and "teenage years" appears to be a huge irony. I do seem, to a certain extent, to be psyching myself to be happy. But when you think again, you're the one who loses out when you choose to live miserably and see yourself in the lowliest manner.

I don't want to be an angsty teenager. It's not a right [to be one], it's a choice of how I perceive life to be. It is rather depressing to say that in all these mere 15 years of existence, nothing has caused me to experience true human emotions. I don't want to waste time being unhappy about how much of "a crap my life is". It's not a matter of practicality; rather it's a matter of being mature and wise enough to decide what's best.

As such, I should be happy. I want to be happy. And this, is a sudden epiphany.

And now, everyday is a new day.

I just realised that I severely lack plain tees.

I have quite a fair number of printed, colourful items but I have absolutely no plain tees or anything.

It's time to take it from the top.

Lifehouse - Chapter One Lyrics

All the stars are out tonight it feels as though I might
Make some sense out of this madness will it turn out right
Who's to say where the wind will blow

Time will tell us if we're out of answers when it stops
Climb back down to the beginning
Take it from the top
Who's to say where the wind will blow

What happens when all your dreams are lying on the ground
Do you pick up the pieces all around
And if the world should fall apart hold on to what you know
Take your chances turn around and go

All the leaves are turning and the sky fades to gray
Strange our life coincides with the seasons of today
Who's to say where the wind will blow

What happens when everything is lying on the ground
Do you pick up the pieces all around

And if the world should fall apart hold on to what you know
Take your chances turn around and go

Carry on you say
Bring the best of today
All I see is struggling on the way

Maybe when the sun crashes through the gray
I can find the strength to make it through the day
Through the day

What happens when all your dreams are lying on the ground
Do you pick up the pieces all around

And if the world should fall apart hold on to what you know
Take your chances turn around and go
Take your chances turn around and go

* I'm IN LOVE with this song!!!

These few days have been so fun!

I ♥ eating seafood :)
I ♥ Grace :)
I ♥ Veron :)
I ♥ Lifehouse (baldie and all :)
I ♥ dressing-up :)
I ♥ Crystal Jade's wanton mee :)
I ♥ EL & debates :)
I ♥ everything right now ;)

It's been such a long time since I felt happy.

For once,

I'm happy :)

Hairhair.

Ariel T♥

Ariel was born on 15 March '92. Ariel studies in RVHS and is part of eldds (which is her greatest love!). Ariel is also in 3A'07. History is Ariel's all-time favourite subject. Ariel really likes Biology as well.

Ariel is 100% whimsical/serious/dramatic/crazy! Actually, Ariel likes being a joker, really.

Ariel loves reading, shopping, dresses, colourful items & listening to music :) Ariel has particular disdain for pork, ugly handwriting and ugly attention-seeking whores. Ariel believes in carrying-your-own-shopping-bag [Shame on you Dickhead!]. Yes, Ariel is trying to do her bit for the environment and nothing will stop her.

Currently hearts & wants: i-pod nano (it's not red but never mind :), electric guitar, tennis racket, dresses [ lots and lots! ], shorts & tees [ lots and lots! ]

Wishes to: score ace results (well there's next year), learn how to play the electric guitar & take up tennis