name: Ariel T♥
gender: Female
I'm:
Introspectively retrospect
& flawlessly flawed.
But I'm about as shallow as you are.
Friday, March 30, 2007
Haha. I got a red barney rustle blanket crumpler today ;)
I ♥ MY BARNEY RUSTLE BLANKET :)
Thanks!
I ♥ MY BARNEY RUSTLE BLANKET :)
Thanks!
Monday, March 26, 2007
Do I even know you?
You're different.
They attest to your "talents".
They say you can.
They'd say work hard; try harder.
They say "have faith in yourself".
Do you?
Well, you said you tried.
Did you?
You wanted to show everyone what you are made of. Eager to please, willing to try.
But was it just an equation of hard work + willingness = success?
You could never answer that question.
You did try but you said that they could not tell.
Discouraged.
Disappointed.
Tired.
How long does it take to try?
Try again?
Try harder?
Try your best?
Sorry, you're not getting a response from the user.
You thought that I would understand you.
Perhaps I do.
Perhaps I don't.
Please, try again later?
Does it matter anymore?
Yes it does.
No it doesn't.
At this point of time, what you say and what you do does not matter anymore.
You live the words of others by the words of others, for others.
Do you still have the determination to carry on?
Do I still know you?
I have no idea.
"You just don't have it."
You're different.
They attest to your "talents".
They say you can.
They'd say work hard; try harder.
They say "have faith in yourself".
Do you?
Well, you said you tried.
Did you?
You wanted to show everyone what you are made of. Eager to please, willing to try.
But was it just an equation of hard work + willingness = success?
You could never answer that question.
You did try but you said that they could not tell.
Discouraged.
Disappointed.
Tired.
How long does it take to try?
Try again?
Try harder?
Try your best?
Sorry, you're not getting a response from the user.
You thought that I would understand you.
Perhaps I do.
Perhaps I don't.
Please, try again later?
Does it matter anymore?
Yes it does.
No it doesn't.
At this point of time, what you say and what you do does not matter anymore.
You live the words of others by the words of others, for others.
Do you still have the determination to carry on?
Do I still know you?
I have no idea.
"You just don't have it."
Saturday, March 24, 2007
One song says it all.
Situation's Heavy - Sugababes
Making decisions about my life
It's up to me and I start to try
I can't keep running away
Trust my instincts right or wrong
Refusing help try to be strong
I'll fight this one today
Here's my point of view
Wouldn't wanna offend you
Wanna do the best to prove
Push your face ain't gonna lose
Deep and twisted but I refuse
Don't want advice but help to choose
I'll just walk these tracks alone
Use it as a stepping stone
Chorus:
Trying to face it all alone
Had to find my own way home
No matter how hard it may be
The situation's heavy
I'm not growing old before my time
Even when there's warning signs
That consequently I can see
The situation's heavy, heavy
How am I supposed to know
Where I want my life to go
If you always hold the plan
And maybe I will learn to lead
It will be my own mistakes
That I can say that's who I am
Here's my point of view
Wouldn't wanna offend you
Wanna do the best to prove
Push your face ain't gonna lose
Deep and twisted but I refuse
Don't want advice but help to choose
I'll just walk these tracks alone
Use it as a stepping stone
Chorus:
Trying to face it all alone
Had to find my own way home
No matter how hard it may be
The situation's heavy
I'm not growing old before my time
Even when there's warning signs
That consequently I can see
The situation's heavy, heavy
oooh etc
Here's my point of view
Wouldn't wanna offend you
Wanna do the best to prove
Push your face ain't gonna lose
Deep and twisted but I refuse
Don't want advice but help to choose
I'll just walk these tracks alone
Use it as a stepping stone
Chorus:
Trying to face it all alone
Had to find my own way home
No matter how hard it may be
The situation's heavy
I'm not growing old before my time
Even when there's warning signs
That consequently I can see
The situation's heavy
Trying to face it all alone
Had to find my own way home
No matter how hard it may be
The situation's heavy
I'm not growing old before my time
Even when there's warning signs
That consequently I can see
The situation's heavy, heavy
Situation's Heavy - Sugababes
Making decisions about my life
It's up to me and I start to try
I can't keep running away
Trust my instincts right or wrong
Refusing help try to be strong
I'll fight this one today
Here's my point of view
Wouldn't wanna offend you
Wanna do the best to prove
Push your face ain't gonna lose
Deep and twisted but I refuse
Don't want advice but help to choose
I'll just walk these tracks alone
Use it as a stepping stone
Chorus:
Trying to face it all alone
Had to find my own way home
No matter how hard it may be
The situation's heavy
I'm not growing old before my time
Even when there's warning signs
That consequently I can see
The situation's heavy, heavy
How am I supposed to know
Where I want my life to go
If you always hold the plan
And maybe I will learn to lead
It will be my own mistakes
That I can say that's who I am
Here's my point of view
Wouldn't wanna offend you
Wanna do the best to prove
Push your face ain't gonna lose
Deep and twisted but I refuse
Don't want advice but help to choose
I'll just walk these tracks alone
Use it as a stepping stone
Chorus:
Trying to face it all alone
Had to find my own way home
No matter how hard it may be
The situation's heavy
I'm not growing old before my time
Even when there's warning signs
That consequently I can see
The situation's heavy, heavy
oooh etc
Here's my point of view
Wouldn't wanna offend you
Wanna do the best to prove
Push your face ain't gonna lose
Deep and twisted but I refuse
Don't want advice but help to choose
I'll just walk these tracks alone
Use it as a stepping stone
Chorus:
Trying to face it all alone
Had to find my own way home
No matter how hard it may be
The situation's heavy
I'm not growing old before my time
Even when there's warning signs
That consequently I can see
The situation's heavy
Trying to face it all alone
Had to find my own way home
No matter how hard it may be
The situation's heavy
I'm not growing old before my time
Even when there's warning signs
That consequently I can see
The situation's heavy, heavy
Sunday, March 18, 2007
I can hardly believe that the holidays are ending. Back to school life as usual.
Left withphysics article, english speech, maths constellation assignment, maths worksheet assignment & summary worksheet. All to be completed by today.
Well I guess I could.
Left with
Well I guess I could.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
State of delirium = 729% deliriousness
Just as much as I enjoy it.
Live for the future.
Just as much as I enjoy it.
Live for the future.
Friday, March 16, 2007
I seriously live up to my name, Super Retard.
I cannot imagine that I left my swimming costume in a bag for 4 months. And now there's fungus on it. I have no choice but to throw it away. I'm so freaking retarded.
Stupidity aside, I'm honestly happy to buy a new two-piece. And I'll have to keep myself busy by trying to lose weight.
Mmm, better days are ahead!
I cannot imagine that I left my swimming costume in a bag for 4 months. And now there's fungus on it. I have no choice but to throw it away. I'm so freaking retarded.
Stupidity aside, I'm honestly happy to buy a new two-piece. And I'll have to keep myself busy by trying to lose weight.
Mmm, better days are ahead!
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I'm gonna do when I get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And I'm trying to identify the voices in my head
God wish you won't you
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel without
And break these calluses off me one more time
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside of your door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Oh I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for
The scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
La la la...
Cause I just wanna be here now
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
Though I don't really know what I'm gonna do when I get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And I'm trying to identify the voices in my head
God wish you won't you
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel without
And break these calluses off me one more time
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside of your door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Oh I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for
The scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
La la la...
Cause I just wanna be here now
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
In order to protect some inncocent man, a name has been substituted with a *.
oh the love; says:
ps! i wanna eat ben&jerry's ice cream
oh the love; says:
omg i almost typed tom&jerry's
oh the love; says:
*beams*
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
o.o
oh the love; says:
OF COURSE!
oh the love; says:
i'm cute
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
eyes wide open
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
lol
oh the love; says:
lalalalallalala
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
0.0 tom&jerry?
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
how about tomdick&harry
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
lol
oh the love; says:
omg
oh the love; says:
imagine the person asking
oh the love; says:
hi welcome to tom dick and harry's ice cream stall
oh the love; says:
so which one do you want?
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
tom dick or harrry
oh the love; says:
tom? dick? Or...
oh the love; says:
harry's ice cream?
oh the love; says:
WAHAHAHAHHAHA
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
imagine the names of the ice cream!!!! lol
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
lemme tell you one
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
harry's hairy delight
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
LOL
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
tom's dick flavour
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
retard-haha
oh the love; says:
omg.............!
oh the love; says:
OMG.
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
lol
oh the love; says:
ewwwwwwwww.
oh the love; says:
the ice cream willbe full of hairs sticking out
oh the love; says:
gawd!
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
LOL
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
mm i love retarded convos
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
lol
oh the love; says:
saaaaaaaaaaaaaame!!!
oh the love; says:
where do we get ben and jerry's ice cream?
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
hmm toilet
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
supermarket
oh the love; says:
yeah right.
oh the love; says:
from tom dick and harry
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
LOL
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
o.o"""""
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
that has gotta be the lamest thing i've ever heard
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
i'll add into the entry
oh the love; says:
tom dick and harry's supermarket
oh the love; says:
specialises in ice cream
oh the love; says:
hairy ones
oh the love; says:
dicky ones
oh the love; says:
tommy ones!
oh the love; says:
muahahahhaha
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
-.-""""
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
ohmy
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
grace
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
you're seriously gay
oh the love; says:
lalala!
oh the love; says:
ohyes
oh the love; says:
and i'm cute too!
oh the love; says:
I'm a cute gay!
oh the love; says:
ahh but that does NOT mean i'll hook up with gay *
oh the love; says:
i've got better taste!
oh the love; says:
ps! i wanna eat ben&jerry's ice cream
oh the love; says:
omg i almost typed tom&jerry's
oh the love; says:
*beams*
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
o.o
oh the love; says:
OF COURSE!
oh the love; says:
i'm cute
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
eyes wide open
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
lol
oh the love; says:
lalalalallalala
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
0.0 tom&jerry?
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
how about tomdick&harry
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
lol
oh the love; says:
omg
oh the love; says:
imagine the person asking
oh the love; says:
hi welcome to tom dick and harry's ice cream stall
oh the love; says:
so which one do you want?
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
tom dick or harrry
oh the love; says:
tom? dick? Or...
oh the love; says:
harry's ice cream?
oh the love; says:
WAHAHAHAHHAHA
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
imagine the names of the ice cream!!!! lol
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
lemme tell you one
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
harry's hairy delight
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
LOL
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
tom's dick flavour
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
retard-haha
oh the love; says:
omg.............!
oh the love; says:
OMG.
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
lol
oh the love; says:
ewwwwwwwww.
oh the love; says:
the ice cream willbe full of hairs sticking out
oh the love; says:
gawd!
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
LOL
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
mm i love retarded convos
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
lol
oh the love; says:
saaaaaaaaaaaaaame!!!
oh the love; says:
where do we get ben and jerry's ice cream?
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
hmm toilet
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
supermarket
oh the love; says:
yeah right.
oh the love; says:
from tom dick and harry
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
LOL
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
o.o"""""
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
that has gotta be the lamest thing i've ever heard
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
i'll add into the entry
oh the love; says:
tom dick and harry's supermarket
oh the love; says:
specialises in ice cream
oh the love; says:
hairy ones
oh the love; says:
dicky ones
oh the love; says:
tommy ones!
oh the love; says:
muahahahhaha
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
-.-""""
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
ohmy
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
grace
729% deliriousness ! [disCo:] says:
you're seriously gay
oh the love; says:
lalala!
oh the love; says:
ohyes
oh the love; says:
and i'm cute too!
oh the love; says:
I'm a cute gay!
oh the love; says:
ahh but that does NOT mean i'll hook up with gay *
oh the love; says:
i've got better taste!
Thursday, March 15, 2007
15 years.
5475 days.
131400 hours.
7884000 minutes.
473040000 seconds.
Finally, another year has passed. I throughly enjoyed my birthday this year ;)
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
5475 days.
131400 hours.
7884000 minutes.
473040000 seconds.
Finally, another year has passed. I throughly enjoyed my birthday this year ;)
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
My birthday's 45 minutes away. 15 March.
14 going onto 15.
Another year has passed.
14 going onto 15.
Another year has passed.
100% Aberrance:
I don't know you.
You're different.
I don't see me in you anymore.
Is this change?
Is this growing up?
Or is it just me?
Or is it you?
What if I am both me and you?
SIGH.
I don't know you.
You're different.
I don't see me in you anymore.
Is this change?
Is this growing up?
Or is it just me?
Or is it you?
What if I am both me and you?
SIGH.
Well I have to get out of the holiday phase. I haven't touched any homework.
I will be so dead. Sigh.
I keep having this fear that I will fail all my exams for this year.
No. I must finish all my history homework tonight. And chemistry assignment as well.
Oh dear, but I've not studied at all.
Sigh. I know I'm gonna fail all my assignments, exams, everything. My panic button is on. Anxiety is taking over.
I will be so dead. Sigh.
I keep having this fear that I will fail all my exams for this year.
No. I must finish all my history homework tonight. And chemistry assignment as well.
Oh dear, but I've not studied at all.
Sigh. I know I'm gonna fail all my assignments, exams, everything. My panic button is on. Anxiety is taking over.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Holidays = yay!
Birthday = whee!!!
I know my birthday this year is gonna be a blast, with all the people around me! Whee :D Birthday, birthday, birthday! My 14th birthday was total crap. 13th birthday? I couldn't even remember. Yet I know this 15th birthday will be unforgettable.
I've never been so excited nor happy about my birthday before. This feels so nice...
My results are really bad. Still, I'm done with crying & reflecting. It's time to work harder & pay more attention next term. My GPA this term was only 2.8, overall percentage 66%...
Erm. Lost debates on Friday. Uh. I. Am. Feeling. Very. Guilty. Right. Now. I know I owe someone an apology and a promise. Well the promise's made. And the apology won't exactly mean much now. There's. Only. The. Promise. To. Keep. And. I. Will. Try. My. Best. So. Give. Me. Time.
Went shopping with Grace after PTM on Saturday. Hehe. Bought another capi and a pair of shorts. I like capis! Capis! Capis! Capis! Tunics! Whatever you call them. Love them. Gonna buy a tee from pull&bear, plus white shorts to match my clothes. Shopping takes away the stress and makes you feel happy :)
Birthday = whee!!!
I know my birthday this year is gonna be a blast, with all the people around me! Whee :D Birthday, birthday, birthday! My 14th birthday was total crap. 13th birthday? I couldn't even remember. Yet I know this 15th birthday will be unforgettable.
I've never been so excited nor happy about my birthday before. This feels so nice...
My results are really bad. Still, I'm done with crying & reflecting. It's time to work harder & pay more attention next term. My GPA this term was only 2.8, overall percentage 66%...
Erm. Lost debates on Friday. Uh. I. Am. Feeling. Very. Guilty. Right. Now. I know I owe someone an apology and a promise. Well the promise's made. And the apology won't exactly mean much now. There's. Only. The. Promise. To. Keep. And. I. Will. Try. My. Best. So. Give. Me. Time.
Went shopping with Grace after PTM on Saturday. Hehe. Bought another capi and a pair of shorts. I like capis! Capis! Capis! Capis! Tunics! Whatever you call them. Love them. Gonna buy a tee from pull&bear, plus white shorts to match my clothes. Shopping takes away the stress and makes you feel happy :)
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Sometimes when things get tough, I feel like running away from all of my problems.
There's so much to consider.
Studies.
Homework.
Results.
Pressure.
Duties.
Commitments.
These are like millstones around my neck. Its true that I'm happy in school. But when I look at my own test papers, think about my commitments, I do feel worried about my studies... With so much stuff to handle, and when I feel alone, I feel like breaking down as well.
Sometimes I do consider running away from my responsibilities, yet these responsibilities never fail to hold me back.
Responsibilities...
I know I can't run away from it. Will just have to stick with it for 3 more years. I don't have faith in myself that I'll be good enough.
There's no point in reassuring.
It's self recognition that I need.
But I know you will be there whenever I need you.
There's so much to consider.
Studies.
Homework.
Results.
Pressure.
Duties.
Commitments.
These are like millstones around my neck. Its true that I'm happy in school. But when I look at my own test papers, think about my commitments, I do feel worried about my studies... With so much stuff to handle, and when I feel alone, I feel like breaking down as well.
Sometimes I do consider running away from my responsibilities, yet these responsibilities never fail to hold me back.
Responsibilities...
I know I can't run away from it. Will just have to stick with it for 3 more years. I don't have faith in myself that I'll be good enough.
There's no point in reassuring.
It's self recognition that I need.
But I know you will be there whenever I need you.